SANTAI ptg

citer lama…

dah lama x buat aktiviti mcm ni..cuma bila lik kg jer berkesempatan lepak dgn smua adik beradik n ipar duai, anak buah n parents tecinta….sronotnya!! balik ari tu mmg penuh dgn aktiviti memasak n berjalan tgk suasana kg dgn hubby…almaklum payah juga aku ni nak lik kg skrg…3/4 bln blum tentu skali…almaklum parents pun slalu turun kl so dah x susah nak jumpa mrk…biar mrk jenjalan pula..dulu ayah kerja , umi duk teperap kat umah, so now time mrk jenjalan lak..lg pun aku satu2 nya anak dia yg duk jauh skit dr mrk…

n pas adik lelaki kahwin dia lar jauh skit juga..lebih2 lg smlm dpt tahu dia dpt promotion jd officer…rezeki sungguh..rezeki anak  dlm perut..4 bln tu…sedih n sayu dgr org dpt rezeki anak…aku ni masih tertunggu n berusaha non-stop….huhu..ok lar..stop pasai tu..nanti sdih lak! oo..adik duk raub lar lpas ni…kembali bersama istri tecinta lar..even kerja di mentakab….x per..walau jauh sejam..bkn ada jam pun…drive jer ar trus..x tersekat2 pun, bkn cm kat kl..perjalanan 45min pun leh jd 2 jam kalu dah jam espc bila hujan….cisss…sakit jiwa dibuatnya.

so ni kra santai ptg sekeluarga….sambil irup udara segar n secawan kopi.

OVULATION kit

selepas kekecewaan bln lepas..as usual days passing by without waiting for anybody..so as to me…i know, i cant give up coz there is always hope n ways as long as me n hubby still working on it….n HE knows e’ best for us n HE knows everything what inside n outside of me n hubby…our feelings, emotions, hopes, strengths to go thru all this. may it never fade away frm both of us..so we still can keep our effort go on unstoppable.

this time as per plan..i’m taking e’ chlomid – can’t remember e’ gram..but for 1st trial doc advised me to take e’ small gram together with EPO n acid folic..good to help conceive, which this 2 things has become almost like my supplement vitamins – everyday consumption

other than that, i’m still continuing checking on my BBT temperature….n its already e’ 4th mth..i can see that my cycle is consistent..around 27 or 28 days so basically the fertile period is frm day 12 to day 15…which it means i need to work more harder on those days which is quite tense once a while when u knows that u r doing it for certain reason…e’ enjoying moments is getting harder…but i hv learn lots…i try to relax n think positive..doing it for fun?? not really but IKHLAS…(guess that is e’ right words!!)

beside i do take an initiative to buy an ovulation kit – this kit is to determine when is my fertile days…it easy to understand frm the instructions n its like u r testing for pregnancy…

u can find this in almost all e’ pharmacy – i bought it @ Subang parade Caring Pharmacy, n i’m using it on e’ 12th day of my cycle…

this is backside of e’ kit..details instruction attached in.

  front look of e’ box – 4 test kit = rm49.90

so frm e’ reading, when it appears 2 line as above, one darker than another one it means next 24-36hrs is ur fertile time dear…n that is mine!! so be prepared zue!!

this is how its looks – 4 packets but left only 3 coz i’m already using it 1. since 1st test already shown e’ sign of ovulation time, therfore i an save 3 test kit for future used….IF still no rezeki for me again this mth…IF not, then say bye2 to it..however it has no expiry date till u open the packets..so keep it for nxt TIME.

TRAVELogue org….

busan sungguh nak buat kerja kat opis…even kerja mmg sentiasa ada…dui! sakit jiwa..mood nak bkerja x ada..camna na buek tu…tlg jawab Ms Zue!!! sdiri tanya diri sdiri ni mmg payah ler kan…BTW dlm kebusanan tu sempat lar berblogwalking…n terjumpa satu blog mnarik n tertarik ni…

its all about his travel all over e’ world experience (satu dunia ka??) x kisah arr..tp mmg dia ni byk travel…for sure lbih dr aku sdiri…hahaha. so kira ini travelogue dia kot….mnarik cara penyampian n paparan gambar…cantik, superb, ringkas n berinformasi gitu…

aku ambil kesempatan membaca travelogue dia ke destinasi yg pernah aku sdiri kunjungi or bakal kunjungi…compare skit, mana tau ada tempat mnarik yg tlepas pandang semasa pergi…so leh ar nikmati thru pembacaan jer..coz nak u-turn x bleh unless spend lg skali duit ke tempat yg sama. fuuh…payah skit yg tu…for me better pi tempat yg x pernah pi kan..utk tempat yg x pernah kunjungi maka leh jdkan panduan citer2 dia tu….so later on dpt nikmati sdiri dgn mr hub pula.

lg satu dia ni mamat melayu kita juga..so penulisan pun dlm bm yg mmg sempoi n mudah difahami…suka gitu :-)

so mai layan skali jika anda pun suka travel…..curi info or sharing is caring kan…

KLIK sini eh..http://rushmooradt.blogspot.com/

porTRAITure of me..

lurve all these…

its a snap…its a click’…its a candid…its spontaneous…its generous…its “speak”…its true…its reflection…its emotions…

portrait of me everywhere n anywhere - last YR of 2010.

{Bandung}

                               naked face {Kundasang, SABAH}

                                                      enjoying e’ momentos {pasar PAGI, KK}

 

   concentration..{in e’ FLIGHT}

 

                                                      u jump..i jump {MANUKAN island}

me HAPPY

                    

mood – HAPPY….thats y ada happy faces yg siap berbunga2 lg gitu…bkn apa, nuffnang $ ada masyuk skit….jd lar…n syukur sgt..mau buat tabungan dlm ASB!!

e’ ADVENTUROUS of sabah

salam. citer lama lagi………

ni kali ke-2 berkunjung ke sabah, umah mentua lg..since mrk masih berada disana. syukur byk2 sgt coz dpt save bila ada tempat nak bergantung bila pi satu2 tempat ni…

kali ni kami pergi meggunakan firefly – dpt promo fare rm156 for two of us plus return..n ni termasuk luggage check in n makanan pergi n balik dah siap book online..SUPERB deal for us..naik kat KLIA…uuu agak snang skit coz byk mode of transport to reach there plus byk interesting shop if nak check in awal pun. sampai kul 9.30 mlm coz fligth kul 7.20pm.

hari per-1  -pg esoknya after breakfast  nasi lemak n pisang goreng, 9am kami bertolak ke kudat yg memakan masa almost 2.5 to 3hrs perjalanan if cuaca hujan n jln x elok according to my PIL…yes its correct it take us 3 hrs to reach kudat town with lots of bad roads when we are in area of Kota Belud….dont know why, somehow every 1 km ada jer jln yg  pecah n x berturap…mcm kena siat2 gitu…berbatu kerikil..seems like to have a road repairs but its has take long time to get it done.

and FYI too..sepanjang perjalanan kami mmg x der lar R&R tu..so dgn cuaca luar yg hujan renyai2…suhu aircond yg biasa tu tp tetap membuatkan aku tersejuk ler amat…so ada rasa mau membuang..dui tunggu punya tunggu sampai x tertahan, maka bersuara ler tanya jauh lg ker?…katanya x jauh lg...but finally it comes to an end of my patient….STOP..need a a stop!!! kena juga cari toilet..if not ABISSSS….hahaha my PIL pun ketawa…mmg katanya kat sabah ni x der rnr..ada toilet org buat tepi jln n berbayar tu lar kalu nak bhenti sgt pun…tp setahu aku x nampak pun dr td..puas juga menjenguk…mmg x nampak any public toilet punnya signboard…huh…so stop ler, kbetulan institut memandu buka n beroperasi….HAJAT pun disegerakan…fuuh…alhamdullillah….lega sesangat lar…

sampai dlm kul 12pm..masih hujan renyai2…kami bhenti jln2 tgk pekan kudat n kaw tepi laut mrk….erm tahap kebersihan kurang memuaskan…sampah agak merata2…then go for lunch. Dah kenyang kami singgah di masjid kecil yg ada kat pekan kudat…duii..ada skit kegelian krn kekotoran in terms of berkulat hijau sana sini bilik air mrk n mcm x terurus gitu…ksian n sdih lak tgk masjid mcm tu, telekung bah perempuan pun teramat lar x terurus..kotor n sikit pilihan..rasanya kaum perempuan mrk x memeriahkan masjid mrk spt kita2 di smnanjung kut…x per arr..yg pasti kami selamat  menunaikan solat fardhu kami jua…

dlm hujan yg masih renyai2 n mmg xder harapan utk cerah, kami truskan perjalanan ke simpang menggayau utk sampai ke TIP of BORNEO. perjalanan dr pekan kudat amik masa dlm setengah jam gitu..n bila sampai me n hubby turun jengah samapai ke tip of borneo dimana penghujung viewnya mmg amat mnarik espc frm above..coz below is picture capture frm above..n slebihnya dr camera saya lar….

                                                picture- frm google

we still pose even in rainy days….romantik lak rasanya..cuma syg kami x dpt turun sehingga ke batuan2 gigi air coz takut licin dlm hujan2 mcm tu…lepak juga lar kat area tu dlm half an hour n tepat dlm kul 4.30ptg kami bertolak balik. kat situ ada lar juga kedai souvenir n kedai kopi utk basahkan tekak n for sure toilet….fuuh lega dpt singgah sblm memulakan perjalanan yg jauh tanpa tempat RNR mmg amat menyukarkan.

n sempat singgah beli kerepek2 skit otw back…

hari ke-2 - as per what me n mr hub dah plan dr awal..kami nak beraktiviti kali ni bila ke sabah..buat adventerous aktiviti yg mmg x pernah kami buat pun seumur hidup…so after so many survey n search dlm intenet..dpt ler tempat ni…KK Adventure Park

tp syg certain games/activities yg mnarik minat kami sesangat dah x available spt quad bikes n beach buggies…huhu..however kami determine nak pi juga. so sblm bertolak naik flight ptg tu..sempat lg pi shopping kasut n suar utk aktiviti lasak tu..hahaha nampak sgt mmg x pernah buat kan perkara2 tu thats y pakaian pun tarak…

pg2 dlm kul 9am kami pergi..pinjam keta mentua..so mr hub pi hantar FIL n saya bersiap pack apa yg patut – air, baju persalinan n tuala kecik utk mr hub yg mmg kuat berpeluh tu….MIL siap suh bawa kuih lg utk bekal..hahaha.

memula agak x confident drive dr umah MIL ke Papar, Kinarut..almaklum nak base on signboard jer…tp kami deceide nak cari map..otw singgah airport, pi cari tourism board centre..so dpt ler guide dr pkerja disana..nice n very helpful info dia beri..so baru ler bgerak dgn yakin wif e’ map in hand juga.

sampai kami agak terperanjat tgk tempat tu, mcm kena tinggal tp rupa2nya according to instructor yg jaga situ, park ni dah lama sgt beroperasi maka nampak “layu” n maintenance pun x bagus sgt, however yg penting apa kami nak buat..all e’ safety tools n equipment cukup n at tip top cond.

            

fee is rm65/head for all activities:

wall climbing – mmg teruja sgt coz x pernah buat panjat memanjat ni..n samapi satu level aku terhenti kpenatan..kaki naik shaking n tgn lak x tau dah nak paut mana satu..makin ke atas makin susah n jauh gap batu2 pautannya..dui, tp kuatkan semangat..kena kasi habis n touch e’ finish plate atas tuuuuuuuu

 

high ropes - aktiviti ni ada 3 jnis laluan….btw ketinggian ni pd paras 15kaki….so mmg gayat dibuatnya masa nak naik keatas menaiki tangga tu…berbuai2 jer rasa tangga besi tu..

 

lalauan pertama…ezy dong…mcm mkn kacang jerrrrrr…..

 

ni laluan ke-2 dimana mmg mengambil masa utk aku buat..n almost give up..tgk tali n cuma berpaut pd rantaian tali tu ar buat den x confident nak truskan..mcm rasa snang jer nak jatuh…mcm ahli akrobatik pun ada juga jln atas tali halus tu…dui..15min juga mr hub n instructor pujuk utk truskan buat…n finally instructor tunjuk n jln dulu maka tiba2 dtg keberanian utk buat so dgn spantas kilat aku buat n cuba kejar instructor tu..siap suh dia tunggu kat situ..sambut aku yg pnakut ni…hehe berjaya juga..

                       

laluan ke-3 n final!!!

absailing – ha ini lg tinggi…dah x ingat bepa kaki tp bila nak buat acara tu mmg teramat gayat..bkn apa..i hv to lean back freely…dui x yakin dibuatnya..camna?? ha..skali lg kena pujuk kat atas tu..pujuk diri sdiri, branikan diri n yakin insyaallah smua slamat…n finally buat juga….CAYA lar utk diri-KU!!

 

hi..its me SYG…frm high up above!! hehehe

lpas absailing…ada lg activity..flying fox utk yg terpanjang di Msia juga katanya..n serious yg ini plg santai n sronok..if leh buat 2/3x free mmg nak buat…tp utk yg ini x der picture cuma rakaman jer yg mr hub buat..so simpan utk tontonan sdiri larr

berkayak – lpas acara daratan dgn confident nak berkayak..actually kaki n lengan dah lenguh sgt..duk jer dlm kayak..tiba2 terasa x leh nak kuak dah …dui…at last kena lambung ombak jer…kami x kemana2 pun…yg pasti kayak pnuh air n satu bdn basah…for me lak i’m tetiba rasa scared pandang lautan yg meluas x berpenghujung tu…gerunnya….so cepat2 suh mr hub tamatkan sesi bkayak..furthermore kena pi amik FIL lak utk lunch kat umah. so e’ END of our 2nd day activities!!

3rd day – flight delay 3 hrs….huhu so masa utk merapu…pi jenjalan kat borneo 1 mall…n sgt suka pi satu shop tu….actually kedai tu namanya KAISON..dpt lar grab english wallpaper yg mmg dah lama tercari2 utk bilik putihku!! rm70/roll…so ok ler kan..

ok..itu lar trip kami…till next time!! adios muchachos!!

BTW..bwh ni few pictures masa 1st time visiting sabah!!

                                               @ Pulau Manukan

                                                 sunset @ Putatan

                                             GAYA street market

                                  Kundasang – Kinabalu point of view!!

e’ journey

day 30 (3/3/11): not sure what to write…but need to share this feeling though its scary…coz penantian itu satu penyeksaan…n this is what happen to me!! i’m waiting for something..waiting for a good news frm HIM to both of us…in a blur situation wif my BBT graph, n in a situation i’m not doing it everyday (taking e’ BBT temperature) all of sudden the day i waited or can expected is passing by without any sign!!! oh GOD…is this real (day-29)…if this is real, pls give me a really2 good news..AMIN coz i’ve never having late mensus for all my life n also never not to have it at all.

I said to myself to make sure i’m pass until it reached 30days of my cycle day..then maybe i’m relief frm this pressure…lots of things in my mind…i dont want to give a high hope but not to say deep in my heart, i pray for e’ best…

dear mr hub is really2 confident when i’m not having my mensus on my day 27 – my normal cycle period. huhu..guy..yes i try to understand him n hope he understand me too, if I'm not giving any response to his bright n wider smile every mng n evening he pick me up frm work!!! dear we still hv to wait until all is assure by e’ doc…so wait patiently while going on pray to dear MIGHTY GOD – ALLAH

so lets today finish with good!

day 31 (4/3/11) – woke up this mng..n checking my BBT..ooo its 36.74..abnormal frm usual body temperature…frm my reading its another sign of “ am i pregnant?”…hehehe coz i’m not having any obvious symptom like what they said..nausea , fatigue or headaches…but today at work i did feel a bit of backaches…skjap2 larr.

me n hubby decide to hv confirmation direct by seeing the doc..instead of doing own test. (ok ker??) actually rasa lebih slamat buat sdiri dulu dak?? huhu..takut terperasan sdiri tp mmg mcm2 perasaan skrg ni…takut n happy smuanya bercampur baur…dui…n e’ date for confirmation is on 11/3 coz this to really2 show i’m late frm my last day period (8/2/11) by 1 week.

again pray for the best…n my weekend pass by like normal with no pressure coz this things really distract my mind..can’t keep not to think about it..even i dreamt about it….huhu

day 32 (5/3/11)

day 34 (7/3/11) – i gave the perasaan keterujaan tu pd hubby..utk dia beli pregnancy test kami…plan utk wait untill firday n c e’ doc mcm x leh jd coz rasa x sabar nak tunggu dah..yer arr penantian itu satu penyeksaan kan..n seriously i am scared..tgk hubby beria2 sgt…n over confident…but me dah rasa skit confident coz till now mmg x period lg..which is away out frm my regular period cycle.

so mr hub pi lar beli e’ kit test..siap call2 lg tanya masa dia kat pharmacy..brand apa ek..n mana satu yg bagus..dui,mana lar aku tahu, pernah skali jer beli…4 yrs back kut..can’t remember anymore…so ptg tu lik dr kerja hubby tunjuk..so a bit excited tgk benda tu..tp takut tetap ada. spt plan nak test ari rabu pg jer…so wait lg shari (esoknya) to pass by safely.

day 35 (8/3/11) – TODAY genap seminggu lewat peod…coz my last 1stday peod is on 2/2  n end on 7/2 (last day peod)

terjaga dr tido early dr biasa..kesejukan coz cuaca luar hujan..terasa nak pee n tetiba teringat e’ test kit….terdetik nak buat test tu pg ni..tetiba rasa x sabr nak verified status diri ni…pregnant or apa?? ya allah dlm keadaan terdesak nak membuang kecik tu..pi turun dapur cari bkas yg leh tadah urin …

later aku buat apa yg patut…dan akhirnya terjawab persoalan n segala ketakutan tu…-ve!!! terpempan tgk result tu….x tau nak define mcm mana dah..air mata x turun pun coz aku sdiri x tau rasa apa..tp yg pasti aku blur….sesangat. mr hub masih tido..n dgn gagahnya aku dekati n kejutkan dia…syg, by dah buat test n i’m not pregnant………..

dgn blur n agak terperanjat..hubby bgn n pi tgk result…n as expected he said nothing much but said its ok…maybe its false, we go n meet e’ doc lar…but for me..mcm harapan dah hancur smuanya!! x perlu jumpa doc dah….biar lar keadaan ni mcm ni sampai nxt mth…baru jumpa doc…frust nyer, ALLAH jer yg tahu.

habis solat baru air mata ku berderai..aku berdoa kalu aku x pregnant, x perlu lah DIA bg ujian lain dlm hidup aku lg..(maksud aku..jgn lar kerna penyakit lain lak), byk juga history penyakit aku ni..x mau rasanya bebankan org2 tersayang…

terbayang2 reaksi hubby masa menanti saat2 ni…wajah dia gembira yg amat n penuh dgn keyakinan…jaga mkn n minum serta pergerakan aku..tu yg buat aku lg sdih…coz smua kerna 7thn yg kosong!! harapan kosong …n keadaan ini hampir buat aku kembali rasa kosong..x tau based on apa lg aku nak berpaut keyakinan ini..cuma DOA jer yg mampu skrg ni..utk kesihatan aku sdiri. dah x byk harapan yg leh aku pertaruhkan.

BTW back frm office, after taking my bath wif all no intention but saja nak jenguk test kit tu smula…tup2 2nd line nya warna muncul, tp x jelas sgt ar..mcm warna pink gitu….erm apa tandanya tu..(however its not relevant anymore coz itu after lot of hours passing by pun!!) aku show to mr hub…so dia advise..jgn pening2 kpala…jumaat kita pi confirmkan dgn doc trus…but my intention is to wait untill genap 2 weeks late frm my cycle…so c lar how.

day 38 (11/3/11) – we went to c e’ doc n e’ result is –ve too!! she ask to come back after 2 weeks n check again….but for me rite now i’m so depressed….n so shock…i’m really wonder n this wandering keep me sad for a day..my tears fall again n again!! I have decided with my hubby to just let it be until it came to my next mensus cycle again..if i’m still not yet peod, therefore i have to c e’ doc again..what to do n what happen?? must find e’ answers too…

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hahaha..finally..day 42 () – my mensus coming back!!! ;(( tears falling down as usual…semoga diberi kekuatan seterusnya.

ESRI M’sia 15th UC – GRAND Dorsett, Subang

its almost 4 yrs back frm our last uc held by my co n now finally it happen again!! all e’ chaos n buziness is all around the weeks before the event..everybody is bz preparing for it..meeting almost twice a week n as for me, i hv to keep up with the registered participant…collecting fee before its commence. ordering gifts n preparing payment…lucky this time we have more staffs frm client service n buss development to help us in arranging n organizing all e’ front preparations. so i have more time n concentration to be a payment collector even i’m also in a mid of closing my mthly accounts plus assisting my lady boss preparing for the nxt yr budget. thanx lar utk smua…

so bwh2 ni gambo yg x bepa byk frm my colleagues camera…i’m not bringing my own camera plus i’m even late on e’ 1st day which i was responsible to handle the registration on e’ mng. i’m STUCK in e’ jam..frust giler..turun keta pun muka dah masam according to my colleague, coz rasa bersalah sgt..huhu.

                               registration area…admin & finance

      final day – me not around, so i’m really miss e’ caption here!!!