e’ TRIlogy – part 1

salam…this is a trip of my journey to hv a happy family..been thru this twice before, but i’m not in a mood n instinct to share all e’ moments n experience wif others…but this time i will. hope wit this it will release my burden a bit…release my tense apart..release my tears away!! ALLAH i really needs all e strength u gave me all along past 7 yrs for me to face becoming yrs in future.

after thnking n decided, me n hubby wanna start all over again. we hv stop frm any treatment 2 yrs back with lots of hope that it will happen naturally if those ways does not help..but our hope failed every mths n yrs pass us by…tears come n go, we are speechless n at one time we blank…blank in all ways.

we start wif our visit to dr hamid arshat – e’ popular gynae & fertility doc in town after few recommendation made by my bff n frm my reading reference too…

my appmnt scheduled on 24/8 – fasting mth..so no sperm count will be done for my hubby but i guess, i cant wait no more..no more delays..then only ALLAH knows, we planned but he is e’ one will make it happen or not..on that day which i’m readily prepared wif my leave taken n mentally set up for all e’ discussions, i fall sick – having gastric pain. seriously painful, i went to clinic, taking injectioon to reciover frm e; pain n fall asleep few hrs, therfore my appmnt was cancelled n rescheduled to 2/9…lucky e’ gap was not far..

as has been set-up, we made it today to e’ clinic. arrive there n register around 9am. waited almost 2 hrs in e’ waiting room for my turn..i see a lot of people wif big tummy n no tummy (but it doesn't mean they don't have yet…might be not enuf mths to show e’ big momma tummy yet). i’m controlling myself when surrounded wif all these ladies…read e’ magazines to throw out my sadness n boring mood away…

at 11.10am i’ve been call to c e’ doc…for e’ 1st time going to face to face wif this special doc – special wif his name n special wif his ability n experience…wif lots of hope in my heart n lots of toughts in my mind..what to say, what to response n what to ask!!

he is nice..muka bersih…huh tenangnya tgk dia but time is always a constraint…we chat in a fast motion, asking n answering n jotted down necessary info by him..then do e’ scanning..haha, i feel good when he said my cyst not a prob anymore bcoz he can’t see my cyst is growing up in my womb again…so he decide me to do IUI. fuuh snangnya doc ni bg cadangan n keputusan – IUI. without any query further n test to do..he is all depends on my previous info n test result jer..leh ker pakai lg…coz dah more than 2 yrs all e’ test result pun..will it be e’ same?? huh that is worried me most. but i guess si pakar will know better…jgn mkn duit den saja dah ler…but its save me a lot too, coz all e’ test is costly espc nowdays. so berserah..

ok, after 15 min of chit chatting, we out frm e’ room…being called for medicines n payment. hahaha…i’ve been given

obimin – multivitamin which content is

Vitamine A 3000unit USP
Vitamine D 400unit USP
Vitamine C 100 mg
Vitamine B1 10 mg
Vitamine B2 2,5 mg
Vitamine B6 15 mg
Vitamine B12 4 mg
Nicotinamide 20 mg
Calcium panthothenate 7,5 mg
Calcium lactate 250 mg
Acide folique1 mg
Ferrous fumarate 90 mg
Iodine 100 mg

Folic acid, sometimes called folate, is a B vitamin (B9) found mostly in leafy green vegetables like kale and spinach, orange juice, and enriched grains. Repeated studies have shown that women who get 400 micrograms (0.4 milligrams) daily prior to conception and during early pregnancy reduce the risk that their baby will be born with a serious neural tube defect (a birth defect involving incomplete development of the brain and spinal cord) by up to 70%.

That's why it's so important for all women of childbearing age to get enough folic acid — not just those who are planning to become pregnant.Only 50% of pregnancies are planned, so any woman who could become pregnant should make sure she's getting enough folic acid.

lypracorn (acetyl-l-carnitine + alpha lipoic acid)

Acetyl-L-Carnitine is a molecule that occurs naturally in the body with a very similar structure as the well known amino acid carnitine, again levels diminish over time. It is recognised for its anti-aging and energy giving properties.

Alpha Lipoic Acid is one of our favorite antioxidants because it has been shown to help reactivate all of the other antioxidants and rejuvenates itself. It also turns bad genes "off" and boosts glutathione which is critical for liver detoxification (and helping your liver to get rid of toxins and excess hormones). All of the organs, fluids, and players in the reproductive system are made up of cells which need protecting. Health cells = healthy fertility.
Cells are turning over all of the time. Alpha Lipoic Acid can have an impact on the health of your cells. One area that we want to nourish and protect is the egg. During the cycle of an egg from "storage" to ovulation there is an opportunity for the egg to be impacted by toxins or nutrients. Antioxidants can provide protection from these free radicals so the DNA is intact and you have a health egg for conception.

the two are a powerful combination that can improve vitality and help protect against disease; studies have shown that they work together to “tune up” the energy-producing organelles that power all cells, the mitochondria - seen as the weak link in aging. As we age, the mitochondria decay both structurally and functionally, and the levels of antioxidants in the body fall, both Alpha Lipoic Acid and Acetyl-L-Carnitine protect mitochondria function and therefore help to preserve cell function and energy.

which all this for my fertility purpose n for my mrhub, is given nurev resveratrol complex for sperm count enhancement – all these for 1 nth consumption n it cost me wif scan procedure n 1st time consulting exactly rm464.

lucky i hv rm500 in purse…so whats left?? we walk out wif lots of hope n waiting patiently for nxt mth appmnt for IUI. by then ADIOS.